*for the sad part of the day.
So, finally, today is my last day at work. We calculated my working hours, signed the paper, with hope I will receive the correct amount of money at the end of the month. It took me a while to understand how it was calculated, and it took me even longer to realize why I felt it was not correct. (I’m slow, you may have noticed. But my feelings are often right).
Basically, I had my extra hours in total of about 68 hours (approximately 2 working weeks). It was calculated at the end of June. If I kept these hours, I should have stopped working from 4th July, since my contract was supposed to end on 15th July. It means I would stop working, but still get paid fully for these 2 weeks, no extra hours to be paid more. However, I still had stuffs to do, so I still came to the office last week plus today with the agreement that I will receive payment for these extra hours. So, in total of 2 weeks plus last week, equal 3 weeks. I don’t count today in since I stayed home on Friday 1st June (which didn’t belong to the two weeks in my extra hours).
What was calculated today, is actually that I will still receive the payment for 2 weeks which were originally my extra hours. But then, we used my current extra hours which was 62 something ( this went down because I didn’t go to work Friday 1st June, and I left the office usually at around 4 last week instead of 4:30), minuses the hours that I don’t work this week (Mon, Tue, Thu, Fri), to be 31 hours in the end. This, to me now, doesn’t make much of sense. Because, originally, I was supposed to be paid fully for these two weeks even if I decided to not come to work at all. So then, we should have summed up the hours I work more, instead of using the extra hours which were not related anymore to this sum. Even if I did leave the office early last week, I remember it was only for 2 days (Wed, Thu). Mon & Fri should be normal. I stayed there late on Tue. The total time I didn’t cover for 39 hours of last week should not exceed 8 hours (which is now missing).
We have been having bad time because of the extra hours and holiday and everything for a while, which I believe everybody gets sick of it already. Not only about the rightful money and/or the holiday we should receive instead of fighting to get (which, in fact, they should give us more as reward of the great work we did under such circumstance), it’s also because of the very bad feeling about how we have been treated. And now, I really don’t want to fight for it anymore. It will not worth it. I don’t know how to explain how sad I feel every time I think about how much we put in our work which no money can pay us back enough, to receive this kind of attitude in the end. I don’t want to feel sad about it anymore. I don’t want to fight to get every little money I could just because I don’t have any other choice, while thinking about how much we brought to them. I badly wanted this to end. Luckily enough, it’s ended. Not 100% the way it should go, but now, I’m free.
If there’s anything I would miss miss miss a lot, it would be the people that were around me. They were my colleagues, and they are now my friends. If not because of them, I wouldn’t be able to get through. I’m thankful to get to know them, truly. I will miss them and our time together as a team, really, a lot.