. in the dream last night, i tried to take a picture of the blue sky with pink clouds from the sunset. at a balcony of a tall building, there were my grandmother and my family. what happened before that was kind of scary, but somehow i was only stressed, or rather uncomfortable, without being afraid. it felt okay when i woke up.
. physically however, i didn’t feel very well. i thought of canceling the plan but then i tried to ignore the thought and pushed forward. it ended up very nice. Antti paid for my hot chocolate with cream, and the extra ‘belated birthday gift’ was a soy sauce bottle which i was hesitated of buying. not that i’m extremely fond of food as gifts, but it’s practical and all the more so now that my budget is limited. the hot chocolate with cream was as yum as the one in Wayne’s. Antti asked if i wanted the bigger soy sauce bottle, and i said no. last time i bought the bigger one and when it reached toward the end, it wasn’t as good as at the beginning. it was nice of him to ask though.
one important thing is that when i said my mind these days would be all about job and money, he coolly referred me to places to check and people to ask. no question, no judging, straight to the point, useful tips. i really appreciate that.
. there was this one person whom this quote is for:
“I could miss you, and that’s a liability.”
— Marty McConnell
it wasn’t going anywhere back then, would it be any different now? … i should invest my energy to something else, not over-think this.
. Song Jae Rim and Kim So Eun look so well together. when they look at each other, when their hands knit, my heart melts.
like many others, i also wish for them to become a couple in real life. but i mean, it’s still a show. i read a comment somewhere saying So Eun should stop playing hard to get, which i actually disagree. in my eyes, she responds well to Jae Rim’s cheesiness and overwhelming intimate actions. Jae Rim is passionate and attractive, but from the beginning, So Eun was already wondering whether he really liked her or it was just his nature. and again, it’s a show. if it were me, i would guard my heart, i wouldn’t want to fall for it. if So Eun fell for him for real and he was just being like that for the sake of the show, what would she be left with? i sincerely wish for them the best, but at the same time i need to keep ‘the show’ thought in mind. really, i hope Jae Rim is true for her.