*”The Family We Choose” is a title from Kinfolk.
first weekend of October, i went to Helsinki. another impulsive decision; i didn’t have to.
on Saturday, after having lunch, i canceled an appointment and went for a nap. the murmur of Oanh and Thuy’s talking in the background, warm bed, soft light, i slept like a baby.
late afternoon, Khoa came and we went to buy ingredients. stopped to listen to piano’s beautiful sound. took a picture of the three bears because, they resembled us didn’t they?
and we cooked and ate and talked through the evening, into the night.
sunday. meditation and yoga in the morning. breakfast. then the zoo (Zoo Day! free entrance!).
dinner. too tired, gulped up quickly. then Khoa setting an example of a good chef, cleaned up the kitchen before leaving.
“a trip of admiration”.
from the moment i walked to the bus stop near home. gaze from the row behind. i know i can be quite amusing to watch. or in general.
to the gaze through the day. sometimes subtle, sometimes obvious.
but my favorites are from the two people i already consider as family.
Oanh said i have a special soft, graceful, and sophisticated aura to myself. she also asked what i thought of her. i was taken aback so i didn’t have enough time to gather my thoughts, but in a different way she reminds me of myself few years back. mischievous, bright, active, open for new experiences, strive for the best in herself and in life, and spreading positiveness all around.
and Khoa. at some point he suddenly exclaimed, “You’re so beautiful!”. couldn’t help but smile. he went on saying who wouldn’t love me really, showing his concern over who would be his “brother-in-law”. i know he has grown quite protective of me. he’s afraid i would get hurt, and that he wants “that special someone” to see my real value, and appreciate and treasure me a lot. oh this little boy. i’ve grown protective of him, too, with the same concern for him as he does for me.
whenever i’m with these two, it warms my heart. the heart that is weary and cold and scared and exhausted, the heart that is trembling like a leaf in the wind, it’s warm again in a space that is so soft and tender, full of love and smiles and hope. they show how much they genuinely care, and the words they say they do mean it. they admire me, and i admire them too. they give me strength.
i need to try hard. to be able to meet them again.