My phone has been off for a while so I sent you an email, not sure if you still use that address… Hope it reaches you fine. Want you to know that I still remember you, remember us and our short but unforgettable time in Lärkkulla. Thank you for always be there and helping me so much. You are such a precious friend. Thank you for trusting me, for appreciate me when I’m so in doubt of myself, for encouraging me and giving me valuable thoughts and advices, even when you might not feel at best at times. I hope I made my time being there with you as a friend worthwhile.
Miss you. Wish you good health and all the best.
❝Not everything is supposed to become something beautiful and long-lasting. Sometimes people come into your life to show you what is right and what is wrong, to show you who you can be, to teach you to love yourself, to make you feel better for a little while, or to just be someone to walk with at night and spill your life to. Not everyone is going to stay forever, and we still have to keep on going and thank them for what they’ve given us.❞ — Emery Allen
Apparently I’m very late. I’m sorry, it has been hectic. I hope you don’t mind?
So it has been a year since our strolling day in Tampere. I still remember we asked for a small candle in that small vintage cafe and felt sorry immediately after since they had to look all over the place for it. Then we were just sitting there, watching the world, talking about all sort of things that I don’t remember anymore. Random stuffs – our thing.
How are you this year? You’re going nicely along the path you’re choosing I guess, constantly looking for inspirations and striving for the best, as you always do. I’m inspired by you, too, don’t know if I ever mentioned that.
The answers for our questions about the future, I hope in time we will know… I hope you had a great birthday, and your new age will come with good health, new energy, lots of fun and love and laugh and happiness. Wish you all the best, always.
P.S: I was scratching my head to figure out how to design the card for you. Due to my current limited design ability, it didn’t turn out as airy and free as my original intention… but I hope you like it nonetheless :”) I remember you with dandelion : ) ready to fly…
I bought the Master’s Sun necklace a while ago for 3 reasons.
First, because of Truc who suggested me the drama. I like Master’s Sun, I find all the characters to be super cute (especially Gong Hyo Jin) and they created a very nice atmosphere in it (despite me having to wake up early in the morning to watch due to ghost scenes), but the main reason was because of Truc though. I kind of want to have something tangible to connect us, apart from the beautiful memories we had in Full House in summer 2012.
Second, because of Kim Yuna. She’s the model for J.Estina, the jewelry company that produces this necklace. I can’t afford to buy two separate products, so I decided to combine two occasions into one during their sale.
Third, because of the “sun” symbol. I like the nickname they gave me during Lärkkula, “aurinko Chi”. The people, the place, the things we did, the memories we created and shared. I even like myself back then, with all the possible flaws.
When I first received it, it was smaller than I imagined, but it actually fitted nicely on my neck. I wore it all the time. At home. To my sleep. It was super cute, like a little charm.
It came together with a rose hair-tie. I didn’t like it at first because of the color. I soon got over that fact. “Oh, it’s a rose!”. Later on, I also discovered that it was quite a good hair-tie, firm enough to hold all my hair (which is, a lot) and still gentle enough to not hurt my hand when I tied. It didn’t seem to be loosen easily either (something which often happens since I have way too much hair and normal hairband couldn’t keep up with it for long). For something that was absolutely free, added as a bonus, it was definitely something practical that I valued.
I was thinking about writing this post ever since I received it, but my writing wasn’t consistent for a while despite me being extremely excited every now and then. I won’t say I will fix it. I will just do.
It was Lunar New Year last week. I talked with my family for about an hour and a half before midnight of the new year (7p.m in Finland on Thursday if I remember correctly), then I talked again with them on Sunday at usual schedule. I didn’t think I would (neither nor my sister) because those two times were rather close together, but my mother was eager to. She said there were many things to talk about (which there were indeed). She seemed to be happy ♥. All of them were in celebration/holiday mood. Many things to do but still it was joyful and relaxing. There was no stress in sight whereas smiles and laughs were all over. Sam was more active than ever. My mom said he got pretty close to my father who hanged around with him the most. During the chat on Sunday, Sam kept gathering and bringing more stuffs to give to my father. It was very fun to watch. That, as well as seeing him staring at the cat curiously, and him jumping in bed, rolling from one person to another. Apparently he was very well loved. And not only from my family members. My mom said even strangers gave him lucky money when they came to temple. I wasn’t surprised. He was a super adorable child.
They will all miss each other so much when this holiday ends…
To start off a new year, I watched About Time. It was a nice movie, I really liked it. It was soft and light and humorous without being shallow. I liked it also because it blended harmoniously between family relationships and romance. I felt good, while watching it and also later. It made to my list of the things I like the most. From that list, most probably I would watch Chobits again soon.
Talking about list, I also put together the Bucket List a couple of days ago. Not many things being there yet but I’ll update it more when I think of more. So together with the Bloglovin’ button Antti told me to put there, I’ve made few changes to the bottom part of my blog. Bloglovin’ was a good idea actually. I assumed that people who read my blog either remember the link already or subscribe via email, but of course for people like Antti who follow lots of different blogs, it’s nicer to have all the notifications of new posts in one email. And it was nice of him to become another silent reader of my blog. It’s getting so much longer nowadays so I don’t know how he keeps up with that, but still.
(In related note, I’ve been using tumblr a lot again).
I myself use Bloglovin’ as well. One of the blogs I follow is Kate, and recently I found out that she has the same birthday as me – 12th November (just different year). She didn’t answer my comment but from her posts I think it should be correct. Anyway. These days she has been having a series of try a little kindness which I’ve been enjoying. I haven’t been going out a lot but it’s always good to have some inspiration for that every now and then to keep in mind. My favorite and doable act of kindness from the list she suggested is “Slip a happy note into a library book for a stranger to find“. I only have books from my school library now though… It shouldn’t be a problem, right? Right?
Another person I follow is James. He doesn’t have a Bloglovin’ button anywhere : D so I just receive notifications via email when there’s something new. He mentioned about a water bottle which I wouldn’t necessarily want to buy now, but it’s interesting so I’d like to keep, maybe for future reference.
What I did buy was grapes. I went to K first and I bought the discounted grapes from there for €1.99/500g, then I passed by S and it appeared to be €1.69 for the same kind. It was cheaper, and the grapes were even sweeter. Since the sale was still going on, several days later I bought another box from S. Turned out it was sourer than the one from K. I was like… Had to tell myself, at least I had a box which was both cheap and sweet.
So yeah, that’s just an example of how I could have many ups and downs even if I don’t go out and have real interactions with other people. : p
Just kidding. I actually would want to meet people and have real interactions with them. It has to be in deeper level though. It happens so often that people talk without communicating, they hear without listening, they rush to get things over with, things collide without them bothering. I still try to find the good in each person as I’ve always been doing (I learned it from my sister, about people as well as all other things e.g. the place I live and so on), try to find the ‘kindred spirit’ like Susan Cain suggested (I apply it to all occasions), just that sometimes I get so weary.
It was Runeberg day and I was surrounded by the familiar smell of Comfort fabric softener (lily & strawberry) which I used to use during the time I was in Lärkkulla. I still miss Lärkkulla a lot and me and us back then. I thought of the time when I turned and caught the moment Axel and Richard smiled during a conversation, I remembered me thinking people could be so beautiful like that in their every moments without them knowing it. I wondered whether I would be happy like that ever again, be able to see people in such beauty and bright light again. Sometimes I still felt the sparkle inside of me, it could be from the things I read/watch or people I met, just to know that they were not to be in my life but were imaginations and people out of reach or not meant to be. Doina told me that she wanted to get her happy ending. Me too, me too. And aren’t we all?
Valentine’s Day is coming. I like its Finnish name – Ystävänpäivä (literally translated: friend’s day). Even if I haven’t found my special someone yet, I know I still have my friends and family. I’m grateful. I really am.
There’s no more coming to class this week so I can take time to write now.
. Last weekend I visited Doina at her new apartment. We cooked, talked about a lot of things (which could be done via writing, too, but it was just much better with having conversation face to face) including how we had been doing and books, and watched Gentleman’s Dignity. It was comfortable, and comforting. Apart from the fact that once in a while I liked being pampered (she’s a lot like my sister in this sense) and that it felt like I was appreciated for the things I don’t even know myself, there was just this air around her that was very soothing, and warm.
. On the way back to Valkeakoski, I saw a guy I knew from Mathematics class. He was one of the high school guys who called my name one time in class but I wasn’t sure. I noticed him because he looked like another guy from Lam’s class who was full of himself. All in all, no good impression, but enough for me to recognize his existence. When he came up in the bus, I turned to look at him (still find it funny about this conditioned reflex of turning to see who gets on the bus without any reasons to). Inevitably, our eyes met. And awkwardly, since it wasn’t like we didn’t know each other, but it wasn’t the relationship of greeting each other either. We stared at each other for a couple of seconds, then I didn’t know what else to do than turning my eyes away. Found it hilarious somehow. And nice, too. I always have that feeling when I meet a person I thought I wouldn’t meet again (not one in my blacklist of about two, of course). I mean, we never know when it will be the last…
. I came back to Statistics class, which actually wasn’t bad because it was taught by Mikko S. (he taught me Mathematics during autumn semester). I like him and his subjects now much more than my first year here (school year 2007-2008). Him of the present knows how to explain things, and I especially like his humor. I think he has become more charismatic over the years (Many people have been exclaiming to me how handsome he is. I wouldn’t say he’s not handsome, imho ‘charismatic’ would be more of a suitable word though). Then the scale of the class is different (smaller than it used to be), the classroom is different. I hope it will be as comfortable as studying Maths previously, and that the result will be satisfying.
. tumblr has been the place I go to these days. I neglected it for a long while because it was rather time-consuming (it’s tempting to endlessly scroll through beautiful photos and words), but now when facebook has become a suffocating place full of negative thoughts (either that, or looking-through-a-pair-of-pink-glasses posts) and depressing news I would prefer not to know about, I decide to come back to tumblr. There’s still no real connections here, but the thoughts are more intimate and real, and I get to know a lot more – books and writers, movies, TV shows, actors/actresses and singers, useful tips, etc. I also learn to reblog more often with pictures of actresses I like and humorous posts which made me laugh (and oh dear, how much I want to smile and laugh these days!). I used to keep it beautiful and calm, but seriously, I used to say “Don’t be embarrassed of what you like” and why did I choose to hide anything? There’s nothing to be ashamed of. I want to be more like myself, I want to be able to show who I really am without the need to cover any imperfections.
. After practicing it for a couple of times, I’ve gotten the hang of curling my hair with the curling iron. I was planning to buy the one Jen uses (Babyliss Pro 1.5″ Ceramic Curling Iron), but I wasn’t familiar with inches so I ended up buying the 32mm (which was the biggest size on lookfantastic) instead of the 38mm. I don’t regret much though, since my hair isn’t as long as Jen’s and the curls loosen quite nicely already with the one I have. I might think about getting another one when my hair grows longer still, it’s a possibility. Not in a near future though. the near future in my imagination now is being able to curl my hair to how I want it to look like with the current curling iron I have, being comfortable enough to walk out with it, and knowing how to do it again. Jen does everything so effortlessly but it has been taking me a while to do all the small details right. It’s amazing how many things could go wrong, but I’m hopeful. Oh, and I like the TRESemmé heat protection spray I bought when I went to Sokos with Doina also. Heat defense up to 230°C, discount from €8.90 to €5.90, nice smell, no sticky feeling – what else would I ask for?
. My sister’s family came back to Vietnam safely. The pairs of socks I knitted for my parents reached her on time, so they received it also. Tomorrow is going to be Lunar’s Eve. I’m not going to do anything, just the thoughts about them would be enough.
This morning, I was waken up to the music that was played by one of my neighbors.
I was strangely happy.
Then I remember what it reminded me of.
The days when I slept on my most favorite corner in Lärkkulla – my single bed in my little room – and heard the music playing, it was. It could be the music students in the studio downstairs, or it could be the Russians with their parties, or it could also be the music students having their parties after some gigs they did in Karjaa.
That feeling. The feeling I dearly miss.
Once in a lifetime, I was happy as such.
Nói chuyện với nhà thật là thích.
Bé Sam nghe đến ăn là chạy vù tới, ăn nhoáng một cái là hết hai hũ – một hũ sữa chua trái cây và một hũ ca cao đặc. Ăn xong còn phải khều khều để ngó, kiểm tra cho chắc là đã hết thật. Sau đấy vẫn còn đòi ăn tiếp nên chị Nga cho ăn thêm nửa quả chuối. Bé tự bốc ăn, ăn tham nên đút liên tiếp vào mồm, chưa xong đã đút tiếp nên má phính lại càng thêm phính. Dễ thương không thể nào mà tả nổi. Mẹ bảo, ăn thế này thì chắc chắn là không sợ bị bạo hành rồi.
Có bao nhiêu điều nặng nề trong lòng, nhìn thấy Sam là bất giác mỉm cười, nỗi buồn nỗi lo phút chốc mà tan biến hết. Trẻ con trong lành quá chừng.
À, ba mẹ cũng đã mang một em mèo mun mới về nhà. Nghe nói là nghịch lắm.
Ừm. Cả ngày chỉ trông đợi có chừng đó thôi.
Christmas warmth. : )
I went to Idea Park with Dean and Antti today. I thought it would be like last time when I just went with them with the intention of meeting friends, this time would be to enjoy the Christmas atmosphere at most. Then they caught me at a total surprise when Antti paid for my cappuccino and Dean bought me a pair of warm slippers to wear at home. I didn’t think I would receive any Christmas gifts this year since I didn’t have the plan to go anywhere, so these gestures of the gentlemen really touched me.
After dropping Dean off at Emmi’s place, on the way back I was feeling carsick so I kept quiet most of the time. One of the good things to be with a Finn (Antti – in this case) was that I didn’t need to keep the conversation going all the time, enjoying the quietness was good, too. I fell asleep at some point to the soothing music in the car. It was like the chill-out music I used to listen to a lot a long while ago. It was nice.