Heart to heart. [1]

I’m sorry I was not there. I wish I could be there at the right time whenever you need…

Don’t forget you can always text me when you can’t stand it anymore. I promise I will try my best, to “be with you”.

Right now, I can only say that you will be fine. Remember to breathe, concentrate on that, and watch your thoughts passing by. Don’t do anything about it. Just stay still, for a while. And continue what you need to do afterwards.

I’m wishing you a safe and sound sleep…

*Hugs*

*More hugs*

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I never meant to hurt you, ever.

Please, please, remember that.

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I wish you could just tell me, even if it’s “I don’t know how to tell you. I will when I can.”. I would have understood.

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I wish I could stop expecting and being disappointed.

I wish you didn’t have the power to influence how I feel anymore.

I don’t know what this is.

Is this what you want?

We stopped doing what we used to do.

We don’t even have time to talk properly.

I don’t want to be just a decoration.

I’m freaking scared and you are just watching.

Or are you even watching?

I hate myself for struggling so hard and you don’t even care.

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I’m sorry.

I want to tell you that everything is fine, that you don’t have to worry about me.

But I can’t…

I will try to be able to say it to you as soon as I could.

You are very dear to me.

Please, be well.