received on 22. breakfast on 23.

received on 22. breakfast on 23.

. woke up early. caught a bit of blue sky and bright sunlight before it turned gloomy, cold, windy, rainy.

. wrapped a packaged and sent it – this was planned a very long time ago. received a tiny little gift from the post office, too.

. fell asleep out of nowhere, woke up panicking. continued sending cv – sending out hope to the world.

. replied etsy message. emailed oh comely.

evening 24.

evening 24.

. my sister gave me this reading light when we were clearing up her place in france. now it’s time to put it to good use.

. numbers are fascinating. stories bring consolation. magic words. i love ‘oh comely’.

Happy birthday, Katariina ♡

beautiful place, beautiful day, beautiful us, beautiful time...

24.5.2013. beautiful place, beautiful day, beautiful us, beautiful time…

My phone has been off for a while so I sent you an email, not sure if you still use that address… Hope it reaches you fine. Want you to know that I still remember you, remember us and our short but unforgettable time in Lärkkulla. Thank you for always be there and helping me so much. You are such a precious friend. Thank you for trusting me, for appreciate me when I’m so in doubt of myself, for encouraging me and giving me valuable thoughts and advices, even when you might not feel at best at times. I hope I made my time being there with you as a friend worthwhile.

Miss you. Wish you good health and all the best.

❝Not everything is supposed to become something beautiful and long-lasting. Sometimes people come into your life to show you what is right and what is wrong, to show you who you can be, to teach you to love yourself, to make you feel better for a little while, or to just be someone to walk with at night and spill your life to. Not everyone is going to stay forever, and we still have to keep on going and thank them for what they’ve given us.❞ — Emery Allen

Seo Taiji (서태지) – Christmalo.win (크리스말로윈)



After watching the teaser, I knew I would keep my eyes on Seo Taiji’s releases from then on (for this album, at least). It’s really amazing how I turned from “Seo Taiji? Ehm…” to “Wow, must thanks IU for introducing me to this legend’s music”!

Two MVs were released for this song, Christmalo.win. The earlier one was band version and then there was the cinema one. It was hard to choose which one I like better, but then I wondered why I had to choose anyway. The band version was to gain interest (which did work on me : p), and the cinema one expressed in clearer form the meaning of the song (especially for people who don’t know Korean, like… me :”)). I would go for the band version if I just wanted to listen to full song without disruption, and the cinema version would be for times when I wanted to admire the project as a whole.

I personally loved Seo Taiji’s idea for switching the role of Halloween and Christmas. Well, considering the fact that I’ve been living in Santa’s land, my conscience was tickled a little bit. Still, I thought it was a terrific idea. Things aren’t always as we think they are, are they? Things might turn out to not to be as good-natured as it seemed, and ugly things might contain unexpected warmth and kindness.

Everything was portrayed wonderfully in the MV. It matched very well with the concept of the song. It kept my attention from the beginning to the end, and I also watched it a couple of times more because it was pretty cool. Like ‘Sogyeokdong’, I could clearly see that lots of effort was put in, which leads to the result to be well-polished and exceedingly satisfying.

I’ve always liked the feeling when I saw things that was taken with deep thought and care, things with expectation that didn’t meet with disappointment, things that amazed me and made me think “Woah, so people could even come up with this ~”. Although the idea ‘Santa is evil’ still didn’t sit so well in my head and I particularly didn’t want to see myself question the good things in life, I adored the other side of the spectrum. Not sure he even meant it like that (I heard I could always count on Seo Taiji for dark themes), but as usual, I interpreted things in my own way. One thing for certain though, his songs had unique sound and depth, and he was called ‘president of culture’ for a good reason.

I suppose, it was a good thing to overcome the fear and find the ‘hidden beauty’ then? Who could have predicted how fascinated I could become with a Halloween thing that started with a scary scene? ‘Scary’ was such a big ‘no-no’. Exceptionally worthy, this was.

Kim Tae Woo (김태우) – I Only Want You (너 하나만) (My Lovely Girl(내겐 너무 사랑스러운 그녀) OST Part.4)


The song, ‘I only want you’ is a medium pop that shows the dual feelings of love that’s both sad and joyous.

Ever since I watch this drama, I think subconsciously I notice my heartbeat more when I listen to songs. Isn’t it nice, to feel the thumping sound in your chest when you smile because you know it’s a good piece of music? Seo Taiji’s Sogyeokdong, Taylor Swift’s Out of the Woods,… The feelings are different every time but they all share one thing in common – they light you up from inside. Every time the heart beats, it’s like something drops and you instantly crave for more.

I like this song. Tae Woo’s voice, the rhythm, the backing vocal, the lyrics,… Everything harmonizes together perfectly. The MV is so cute it makes me smile. Reminds me that Tae Woo was cute in the drama, too, awkwardly cute. I heard people calling him “bear”? With quite a loving voice at that. So I guess I’m the only person who was “fooled” by his cool appearance (maybe because of his dark shades? and photos of him in dark shades with his wife and two daughters). And he’s also the maknae (youngest member) in g.o.d! When I heard Kim Jong Kook mentioned this fact in Running Man, it really caught me off-guard. Lol, cuteness all around.

New episode was broadcast today. I hope they introduce more nice songs like this, the OSTs have been very good so far. I actually really enjoy this drama. Don’t need to think too much, just let it lead me through the feels.

Taylor Swift – Out of the Woods

"Midnight tonight".

Midnight tonight”.

When Taylor Swift releases her music, it’s like a party everyone is invited. I can feel the excitement built up in the air, people counting down like in New Year’s Eve.

I’m not a hardcore fan, but I do keep a certain level of anticipation for her releases. It’s hard not to. Matti likes Taylor Swift, he introduces me to tswiftdaily on tumblr. They update frequently (coming in full force now actually), and I like what I see. I follow Taylor herself on tumblr, too, and it’s a good thing she’s there because I can’t really follow what’s going on on facebook (I think the system there – facebook news feed – is a mess) and I’m barely on twitter (I’m there mostly only for IU’s updates). So yeah, with all the things bombarding my dashboard (interviews, videos, beautiful edited pictures with quotes, gifs,…), it’s hard not to be in the know and naturally inhale the excitement.

I like the song from the first time I hear. When I listen to it, I feel as if I’m swirling in an invisible pool of emotions with my eyes closed. There’s something alluring and hypnotizing from it, like I’ve tasted a sip of wine and I dive in deeper and deeper in a daze of… love. My heart beats fast and it gives me so much feels.

Taylor explains it better than anyone else.

Out Of The Woods is one of my favorite songs on this album because one of the goals I set out to accomplish when I made this album was that I wanted to make sure that these songs sounded exactly the way the emotions felt.

This song is about the fragility and breakable nature of some relationships. This was a relationship where I was kind-of living day to day wondering where it was going, if it was going to go anywhere, if it was going to end the next day. It was a relationship where you never felt like you were standing on solid ground. And that kind of a feeling brings on excitement but also extreme anxiety and a frantic feeling of wondering.

And this song sounds exactly like that frantic feeling but it stresses that even if a relationship is breakable and fragile and full of anxiety, it doesn’t mean that it isn’t worthwhile, exciting, beautiful, and all of the things that we look for.

— Taylor Swift talking about her new song Out Of The Woods on GMA 10.13.14 (x)

And Jack Antonoff, too, co-writer/co-producer.

She’s [Taylor] very natural — when she gets an idea, it just happens very quickly. I would send her these tracks, and when an idea would happen, we’d be 5000 miles [apart] or whatever but she would start emailing me these voice notes like crazy and it would just be happening so quickly that there’d be this excitement.

There’s a frantic feeling in the song. What’s interesting about ‘Out Of The Woods’ is that it doesn’t really let up. It starts with a pretty big anthemic vocal sample that’s me, and then there’s a drum sample that kicks in that’s kind of huge, and then you don’t really know how you’re going to get any bigger but then the chorus hits and it just explodes even larger. And then the bridge hits, and it gets even more huge.

When I was working on the track, I was thinking a lot about My Morning Jacket and how everything they do, every sound is louder than the last, and somehow it feels like everything is just fucking massive. And that’s the feeling that I went for. It started out big, and then I think the obvious move would have been to do a down chorus, but the idea was to keep pushing.

This song means a great deal to me. On a production level, on a writing level, Taylor’s lyrics and her melodies — there’s something very important about this song.”

— Jack Anotonoff on working on ‘Out Of The Woods. (x)

I love the lyrics. All the metaphors and how it’s all beautifully written, it’s amazing. I really wish she could make a lyric video of it. Like, seriously. I especially love these parts.

Looking at it now
Last December, we were built to fall apart
Then fall back together
Your necklace hanging from my neck
The night we couldn’t quite forget
When we decided
To move the furniture so we could dance
Baby, like we stood a chance
Two paper airplanes flying, flying…
And I remember thinking

Are we out of the woods yet?
Are we in the clear yet?
In the clear yet, good.

Remember when we couldn’t take the heat
I walked out, I said “I’m setting you free”
But the monsters turned out to be just trees
When the sun came up
You were looking at me.

I like some of her songs and some I don’t, but this song is certainly somewhere at my top favorites from her right now. The emotion it brings is no joke. I listen to it again and again, and it manages to remain its special effect on me every single time.

I’m glad Taylor stays true to herself and keeps bringing out good music. Other people can say whatever they want, Taylor is free to make whatever kind of music she likes and for people who appreciate it. As for me, she has my thumbs up.

VIXX (빅스) – Error


I admit I didn’t check new music from new groups as much as I should. I know the enormous effort they put in to produce the music that it takes only a couple of minutes for us to listen to, so really we should always give them a chance. I try my best but sometimes it’s just so easy to fall back to old pattern, listen to music from known artists only, and it’s such a waste. This time, fortunately VIXX has Youngji from KARA to feature in their MV. I had seen the name of the group already, and I had heard people talking good things about them, so this last bit was the necessary factor for me to reach out. I didn’t watch the show to choose new member for KARA so I don’t have a fixed impression about her beforehand, but as far as I see her in KARA, she’s adorkably cute (lol I think ‘adorkable’ isn’t a valid word, I just mix “a dork” and “adorable”), she makes me want to watch her more.

They didn’t disappoint me. It was a nice song with beautiful MV that had a story. It was visually stunning and the flow of upbeat music kept me watching until the end. It was strong and intense and it made me feel a lot. It might be a bit difficult to follow the story line from the first time watching, but soompi helped me with this.

The music video features Hongbin, who is sad at the death of his girlfriend, played by Kara‘s Youngji. After turning himself into a robot, he creates one of Youngji and gives her the same memories. They are then chased by people who find Youngji’s existence illegal.

Ah ~ Talking about it like this makes me feel like watching it again now.

The song seems to be doing well on charts, so I’m happy for them.

The mini-album of the same name was also released. I listened to it and it was good, too. Recommended.

Apparently they are going to have a tour in US. I wish them best of luck, and I will keep eyes for their future activities.

Seo Taiji (서태지) – Sogyeokdong (소격동)

"The cover is an artwork that metaphorically depicts an innocent girl and the symbols that are in contrast. We decided to express the entire theme of the album through a girl that had both fear and curiosity towards the world she faced." (x)

“The cover is an artwork that metaphorically depicts an innocent girl and the symbols that are in contrast. We decided to express the entire theme of the album through a girl that had both fear and curiosity towards the world she faced.” (x)

The way I saw Seo Taiji and his music changed drastically for the last few days. It might have something to do with his appearance in Happy Together. I had thought he would be a serious man, but he wasn’t at all. He was just calm and gentle, even hilarious (whether he intended to or not). He talked about his wife being a fan of IU and she used to listen to IU’s songs during the time when they dated (she’s same age as me, maybe we could form a 88-line IU’s fan or something, ha ha), and that he thought the main reason for Sogyeokdong to top charts right upon its release must be thanks to IU. When Myungsoo mentioned IU sent him ginseng (again, it was the 2nd time I heard about this, lol), Seo Taiji said he received it from IU, too. It was funny to see these ahjussis proving how close they are to IU.

When Seo Taji’s version of Sogyeokdong was released, I had a bit of mixed feeling. Although I had known his voice from the Happy Together clip, I was still taken aback. To be honest, he sounded somehow girly to me at times, especially at the beginning. It got better along the way though, and I liked it already the second time I watched. This morning when I woke up, as usual for these current days, I grabbed my headphones and listened to music with my eyes closed and my mind still being in a haze. It felt perfect. His voice, the music, its soul. Everything.

After watching his version and also the director’s cut, it still wasn’t clear what happened to the girl, but I had my own interpretation. So she tripped while running to the taxi. Her bleeding lips might be from her abusive father then. She got the boy’s attention but was still shy when being caught in a state she didn’t want him to see. They went on to have a beautiful relationship, with all the pure and soft and tender of a young couple. Awkward and shy, fragile but important. The girl’s family was involved in protests or activities against the military government at the time though, and the police came to take (at least) the father away for “re-education”. The girl might be taken away, too, or she was put into the orphanage. Years later, they came back. Same place, different times. They didn’t meet each other, but I liked to think it wouldn’t stay that way forever. The paper-crane he picked up at the end, it could be the message that she left, right? I liked to think of it as an open ending with high possibility of happiness. I read a comment about don’t expect happy ending from Seo Taiji’s music (lol), but I have the tendency to head to the light, so I will keep my interpretation that way.

It was interesting to know that Seo Taiji spent his childhood in this area. I supposed it was a good material to start with. Up until now, I still find it fascinating how well-thought and well-executed this project is. I mean, Seo Taiji managed to get people interested in Korea’s history. I saw people asking and some others appeared to be quite dedicated to explain. Even if it was just a small part of the history, people had the chance to get to know about it in a creative way. From this dark background, Seo Taiji told a sad but beautiful love story, one that was full of longing and would stay in people’s mind for a very long time.

Another interesting thing was that this collaboration was so unique. It was rare to see a collaboration which was not a duet (I actually don’t remember any on top of my mind right now). It was also a brilliant idea to have IU’s version to tell the story in the eyes of the boys, and Seo Taiji’s version filling the missing pieces by the heart of the girl. Breaking typical logic all the time. Brilliant, brilliant.

It caught me by surprise that Sogyeokdong was only a pre-release, only a stepping stone to a bigger release later on. Such a meticulous piece of work was just only the beginning of something bigger? I heard about it in comment section before but I doubted, now of course apparently his fans/people who followed his music for a long time knew it better. Keotronvo told me that Sogyeokdong was more of a song for IU. I would have doubted it before, but I saw the most recent teaser for his title track MV earlier today and I thought there might be some truth about it. Seo Taiji was versatile and he could easily step into many genres, he was good in Sogyeokdong but look at this.

I was never a big fan of Halloween, scary stuffs would never be in my interest, but unbelievably I found myself liking this teaser. I hadn’t known Seo Taiji before Sogyeokdong, but I knew instinctively this was clearly more like him. Some people might say IU wasn’t suitable for Sogyeokdong, but I believed she was the most suitable choice. Seo Taiji might not be as serious of a person as people painted him to be, but obviously he was serious with his music, and he chose IU. IU’s popularity was built solidly from her ability to deliver music in its most possibly artistic way, he must have realized it. The fact that Seo Taiji’s wife could be a fan of IU and IU was well-received by the public could add to that but I didn’t think those would be the main reason. And IU did well. It felt a bit silly, I was a bit afraid to admit I liked IU’s version more. I shouldn’t be afraid of it though. Seo Taiji wrote, composed, produced the song, yes, but it didn’t necessarily equal with expressing it best. He suited more to the title song, for sure. My preference was also subjective. I liked IU’s version more didn’t mean I was looking down on IU’s senior, it was just me having an opinion on a “good vs. better” subject which I should be honest with myself. When two versions of a song were to be released, it was bound to be compared. Whether I liked it or not, I unconsciously compared them.

Talking about comparison, I also noticed that Seo Taiji’s version had higher tone than IU’s. It was an coincidence. I planned to listen to Seo Taiji’s version first but iTunes played IU’s one first, my laptop was slow so before I could switch to Seo Taiji’s version, I heard a bit of the beginning from IU’s. It was a small incident that made me smile.

All in all, I really liked this Sogyeokdong project. It should absolutely be something that both Seo Taiji and IU could be proud of. I was glad Seo Taiji trusted IU in this. I wondered whether it would be a duet between them during his concert, but thankfully MBC was set to broadcast it so it would be a good chance to spot it in higher quality than fancams. I also wondered which version would be put into his album, I wouldn’t think it would be IU’s version, but would it be Seo Taiji’s version only or would it be duet? Hm, this way of arranging obviously kept my anticipation. Additionally, Seo Taiji succeeded in converting me to be interested in his stuff. I was very willingly to translate news about his teaser from English to Vietnamese to kites. Well, I don’t regret to get to know better about a legend, one who appreciates IU and has good music.

thought about the short trip to the supermarkets today

the boy who was next in line to me, wearing a green hoodie

the african girl that smiled (we coincidentally looked at each other, and it was so natural to smile at an african girl)

the woman who startled me and we both smiled (reminded me of the stairs to the basement in lärkkulla, i got startled so often there)

and the old woman in the cashier who also smiled (i always smiled at her then at some point she decided to also smile back)

the owl city songs, feeling of autumn and winter and

things of the past

and thought about sam, the way he asked in vietnamese where i was

he could speak two to three words in a sentence now

his voice was absolutely lovely

these are the days i will forget, at some point

but it happened

it surely did

i think it was in a room of a tall building with open corridors…

in my dream, i was popular (ha ha)

a guy went away and another came

he was flirtatious, trying to wrap his arm around my waist

then Perhaps came in so he took back his hand and pretended to act normal

Perhaps looked at him, full of suspicion

and suggested to play cards

like my mind was read, i had just thought moment ago when i saw him “woah it’s been a while we didn’t play cards together”

Perhaps lied down and i saw something like papers on his back in a split second

i tried to take it off in a joking way, Perhaps was avoiding it but at the same time was smiling

then the other guy helped me and Perhaps immediately changed his attitude

when those two were glaring at each other, i took the chance and got the papers

(this must be the effect of the name-tag game from Running Man)

i ruffled his hair

he smiled


in another dream, i saw deer in the city

they were just casually hanging around

was it in the park? i saw some white arches

they were near the green trees, going this way, that way, and i followed them, as usual with my camera

the dreams were light and pleasant


Antti I. was patient and kind

no class going on at the moment so he gave me a book to read and make slides of

school, school, school…

Modern Times was released a year ago (on the 8th)

listening to it on the way home brought lots of feels


why are there so many songs released during this time?

my favorite is Time and Fallen Leaves by Akdong Musician

well, i was crazy about Akdong Musician ever since 200% and was even more thrilled when IU and AkMu got acquainted and stayed close

of course i had to check out every AkMu release from then on

this song is as nice as their other songs, with Lee Soo Hyun’s pure and soothing voice and her special high notes blended in perfectly with Lee Chan Hyuk’s deep tone, and overall it gives off a calm feeling and also sadness of the fall

and that cover photo, wow, isn’t it a piece of art?

next up is Kim Tae Woo’s song for My Lovely Girl OST

i haven’t watched the new episode(s) yet so i don’t know how it comes up there, but i’m pretty sure it will be good

people don’t seem to appreciate this drama’s OSTs very much, but i really like most of them so far

side note about Kim Tae Woo: i knew him when IU said she was a fan of g.o.d then later on had a duet with them and also attended Tae Woo’s second daughter’s first birthday party

my first impression was that he must be a cool guy, who’s serious and all

then i watched him in Running Man…


just kidding, he actually was pretty friendly and cute, the kind of person you like to spend time with

i’m happy to see more of him, and listen to his solo song too so that i know how his voice is like

i like it